Rainy Days

20 May 2011 3 Comments

by heatherrainbow in family

It’s been raining almost every day this whole spring season.

I haven’t written, because I’ve been busy.

But, I wanted to let people know. I’m going through a really hard time. My mother has adnoid cancer. She may have been misdiagnosed with fibromyalgia. Who knows for how long. My mom is fairly young. My grandmother (her mother) is still alive. Not in great health, but alive. And, my mother may not live longer than my grandmother. And my mother will never know my daughter. And, she likely won’t ever meet any of my future children, if I could have children.

But it also means I won’t have my mom anymore. And, we haven’t had a really warm or good relationship. We’ve had a lot of hard times. It has not been easy. But its scary. And, I don’t really know how to deal with all these emotions.

Strangely, I found out that my daughter had had her adnoids removed about a year or two ago. How adoption bizarre is that?

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